Beyond the Body
As human beings, our bodies serve as a protective armor. As women, our bodies additionally serve as powerful portals. Every human on Earth was birthed from a woman.
With this kind of power, the female body has been a source of political controversy for centuries.
For centuries, women have had the common experience of objectification of our bodies, being named property at times, threatening the acknowledgment of and stigmatizing our logical, emotional and spiritual selves. Would it be empowering to OWN the objectification of our own bodies? If we remove a layer, what is beyond the body?
The sculptural installation Beyond the Body is a powerful two-part experience for participants to privately use plaster body casting methods to create our outermost shell, in the form of an object! After coming to terms with removing the physical out layer, participants will look inward to reflect on the question: What is beyond the body? The public display would anonymously and proudly show the diversity of bodies of women, who stand in solidarity with owning their selves. By removing the body and putting it on display, we are allowing our emotional, logical and spiritual selves to shine through our complex stories, displayed with the body casts.
I am not just a strong, attractive body that can outperform most. I have emotions, too. I feel pressured by society to hide them and many of my experiences only reaffirm this. When I shut down I can be very cold, but when my emotions are nurtured by positive reenforcement, I feel comfortable to open up and be my true self.
I am often looked to for stability and grounding, even when those qualities are vacant in my own life. I find reservoirs of energy I didn’t know were there. Traditional school did not work for me, however I have brilliant mind. I am a complex thinker and infinite library of information. It is important to be both selfless and selfish. It is important to live for yourself and work for yourself. If you take care of your needs, it is easier to take care of others.
We all have the ability to give power to whatever we respect, pay attention to and talk about. If we can respect our bodies, minds, hearts and souls, we are literally giving ourselves power.
I am a leader with innovative ideas. I guide others through major life choices and decisions. I lead organizations to success through communication and development. I have a great mind for navigating difficult oceans. I have an expansive and beautiful mind.
I am very fragile like a flower and fragile like a bomb. My heart is so big I feel like I could solve all problems with love and understanding. I love and have faith in God. I love dogs, flowers and documentaries. I have a hard time understanding why people do not operate with love, give each other grace, or treat each other with human decency. I do not understand societal polarization.
I am intense, sharp but soft like a feather. continuously searching for the next accomplishment to no final goal. I recognize that my intuition has a continuous drum beating in my soul - keeping my foundational rhythm to move through life.
Participating a body cast model scared me, made me sick and nervous. How could I expose the scars, the cellulite, the imperfections to a near stranger, and worse to my co-workers. But seeing my body through the eyes of an artist, the curves and shapes it made, the lines I realized that my body was more than the imperfections. My body carried my 70.3 miles to complete a triathlon, birthed two children, and has supported my family as we move across states and oceans following Nav orders. I am more than the stretch marks from boring children, the scars from adventures. I am strong, I am smart and I am loved not because of what I look like but because of who I am.
What's on your heart? I used to ask this question all the time to people I entrust, and found that my heart was being exchanged to those whom I entrust as kindreds. My heart is overflowing with good things, again I say my heart is overflowing with good things. Connection with people, the sweet song on the radio that stirs nostalgia, the timeless sunsets, my heart is overflowing with good things.
My soul, my soul is steady...okay not consistently steady, those that know me well know that at times my exterior is stable but my core, my soul is shaken. My soul is shaken when ideals are cemented as truth, my soul is shaken when hatred seems to be the consistent noise coming from mega phones. But today my soul is steady, because I'm not fixed on the imperfections of humanity, but the hope that there's better.
My exterior is just a portion of what I bring to the table, my heart is ready to love, my mind is ready to engage and my soul is full of peace.
My heart is full of love for the people around me. I always wish the best for anyone I meet and although I can be blunt and my love seems tough, it is given out with care and concern for my loved ones well being.
I am one to have many questions for many subjects. I am always searching for the truth and constantly want to learn new things. I am who I am and my soul shows that I am a complex human being with many thoughts and feelings in which some are exclusive to me. And even when I pass, my soul, and who I am in essence will be remembered by the ones I love.
I was asked to answer a simple question along with my mold. “What do you want people to know about your mind, heart, soul, and body?” but the question suddenly didn’t seem so simple to answer. I realized I’ve never been asked such a questioned and to even answer seemed foreign to me.
As the deadline approached for my response, I reached out to my mother. The conversation that sparked between us was not only educational but more powerful that I ever imagined.
My grandmother was born in 1934. She was a single mother of two girls, independent, educated, and accomplished. Her accomplishments were significant and notable; but not just because she was a women but for the impact and change that she created in her lifetime. My grandmother was ahead of her time and planted that seed of independence and passion into her daughters. My mother who was born in 1958 accomplishing more than her peers or counterparts in education, art, and career. My mother continued this particular narrative by passing these attributes along to her own four children.
I realized the reference Sibel Galindez made about the “200 year narrative” was evident in my own life. Although I was born in 1984, the person that I am today started with the narrative that my grandmother passed down who was born 50 years before me.
In conclusion to finally answer that “simple” question:
My mind, heart, and soul are all intertwined as one. Who I am is endless and adaptive. My deepest desire is to leave an impact on the lives of every individual that I intersect. We are all important and leave a lasting impression on those around us. We can create more than we destroy.
My heart is soft and strong. It is giving and loves to love. It drives me and makes me brave.
My soul is free. It connects me to the world and the people around me and is fed by the love and passion that surrounds me
My heart is soft and strong. It is giving and loves to love. It drives me and makes me brave.
My soul is free. It connects me to the world and the people around me and is fed by the love and passion that surrounds me
I am more than just a great pair of legs. I am more than the art that covers my body. My legs are strong, long, and beautiful. They support me. They are a reflection of only part of me though.
My mind is a very interesting place, usually very fun and loving. Sometimes it can be harsh, over analytical, and overwhelmed with emotion. It is curious, open, and creative. My mind has overcome so much and is much stronger than I give it credit.
My heart is so big I feel like it could hold multiple galaxies and still have room. I love love and all the ways love is expressed. I am so grateful for all the love in my life. I am so grateful to have that love for myself and others and how I see the world. Finding love for myself for me has been the most powerful experience. Love for yourself grows the love in your universe exponentially.
My soul is of the divine. Being named after a goddess I have had perhaps an easier time than others tapping into my inner light. Though I have had to learn not to give all my light away so I can remember I am the light. I have a wandering soul, wanting to experience all that it can. I have always known I'm a magical being, tapping into that when I align with my truest self. Hungry for knowledge and experiences this life has so much beauty.
My legs are where I am most heavily tattooed. I wear my tattoos as both armor and an invitation. Sometimes to remind me of all that I've overcome, both my mental and physical strength. Other times to share the gift that I am, things that bring me joy, a way to connect and ground.
I am intensely curious and have the ability to see how global changes affect me and my neighbor-- human, animal and plant. I love to think and debate, and collectively think some more. I believe if you can imagine it, you can create it.
Loving comes naturally to me as I am lucky to have been loved tenderly and respectfully from the day I was born. I lead with an open heart and mind so the sting of rejection, hate and anger strikes me hard. At times I am judgemental because I believe in what I call True North. Yet I strive to forgive just as I have been forgiven by those who I love and respect.
I am both a leader and a good teammate, and try always to be a good friend to myself and others.
I am an artist and an activist and have lived my life in chapters to include academia, single life & career, married life, motherhood and caregiver of & advocate for my aging parents. Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the varying facets of my life and feel that one dimension is sacrificed for another. I am always that child singing and dancing amongst the trees and flowers, looking up at the sky with love and wonder, hoping my song reaches someone in the universe.
The following is a TRUE STORY:
After a particularly trying day at work, I decided to have a weeknight drink at a local dive bar. I got my Vodka Sprite (two limes) and looked around to find a place to perch. A stranger patted the seat beside him; I smiled and walked over to engage in some polite small talk.
He thought he should share that he could tell my age by the sagging chin and thinning hairline.
OUCH. DIRECT HIT. YOU SUNK MY BATTLESHIP.
My profile. I hate it. I have a pretty face, but when you see my profile, ugh. A saggy chin bulge that no matter how thin I get, this family trait will always be there. Every female on my maternal side has been cursed with this profile destroying sag. What would you do if a stranger hit you with your biggest insecurity?
Be honest with yourself.
So what did I do?
N O T H I N G. I took the hit and kept going. That’s how I cope.
This shallow stranger managed to find my achilles heel in a matter of seconds. But really the biggest cruelty was done to himself.
He missed out on getting to know the intelligent, insanely creative, funny AF, kind- hearted, generous-minded, loving soul that sat next to him. Despite enduring many years of trauma and hurt, and jerks hurling insults at me, I somehow manage to keep my heart soft. How, you ask? I don’t know. That’s just how God made me. A weeble-wobble reinforced with rebar. You CAN’T knock me down.
Does that mean that I don’t get hurt by others' words? F*#K NO. Everyword stings like a lil’ lemon-pepper sauce right in the eye.
Here’s what takes the sting out for me. There is something broken in them that makes them act that way. It’s actually NOT about me. They need sympathy, because really, they are the ones who are suffering the most.
ADVICE FROM A WEEBLE - WOBBLE
Never judge a person until you have walked in their shoes, to their house and eaten dinner with their parents.
Be kind. Every person you meet has a struggle inside you can’t see.
Your kind gesture could be the only thing that gets a stranger through the day.
I am an artist with creative solutions. I graduated with a 4.0 when I earned my BA. I have a great mind for teaching all ages and a wide variety of subjects. I have an unusual and analytical mind.
I am a very complex and emotional lover. My heart is so big I feel like I could fit a billion Earth’s inside of it. I love and believe in people. I love animals and nature. I have a hard time understanding why more people can not feel the potential for love to heal the problems on our planet. I do not understand societal norms of dating or marriage.
I am a wandering wind, constantly asking questions to which I accept no definite answer. I recognize that my spirit has a relationship with eternity. My intuition knows that my soul is connected to everything, material and ethereal. I can not be limited by this physical experience.
I wish the world saw me as I see myself: a human being in woman form, capable of sustaining life within me and outside of me, to be cherished, nourished and honored for that miracle like the queen bee rather than used and abused like the milk cow.
I wish the mall security guard who ordered me to feed my baby in the bathroom...
and the older man who leered at me while I fed my baby with my exposed breast...
and my mother who encouraged me to cover up in front of the leering man...
and the other women with babies of the same age who shared that they hid themselves while breastfeeding...
saw me as a fellow human being, hurting & scared, vulnerable & sleep deprived, overwhelmed by the awesome responsibility of caring for another human being, desiring only to be supported in that moment. I wish they had offered me a seat, a glass of water, and a kind word— You are doing a great job and have nothing to be ashamed of. Don’t isolate and hide yourself. Feeding your baby from your breast is a miracle to be treasured and respected by all humanity for the awesome power it is.
My heart, my emotional self, is up down and all around all the time. It is so full of love, so full of pride, so full of joy, so boundlessly filled-up by family... My family, and the Human family. My heart fights with my mind. The love, pride, joy and all other feelings get tied-up and twisted with my mind’s tendency to try and fix things… to sometimes over-simplify. My heart is sometimes stuffed down and greyed-out by my thoughts… The over-time work of my mind. My heart is beautifully bound by matriarchs of the past, motherhood, wifehood, partnership, friendship and citizenship.
My soul is not something I really understand yet. How is it separate from my mind and my heart? - I don’t really know. Together, they are my soul. They are Me... Carried through this life within my body. I’m not sure I can really know or understand my soul, until the time comes for it to stand-alone and separate from my body. For now, they are intertwined and bound together. And so, I must care for and love my body- the vessel for this heart, mind and soul.
When I think about different “trends” pertaining to women’s bodies, there is always one thing that has stayed consistent. The perfect body type always has a skinny waist, and a flat stomach. This has always been a big insecurity for me, and many others I know. But the truth is it’s not always healthy to fulfill those “perfect” bodies. Everyone needs to learn how to feel strong and empowered in their own bodies and a place like the belly really represents the need to be perfect.
Heart? My heart beats because of my daughter, She is the reason I am alive. I feel like she came in to my life when she did to save me from so much and I am grateful for that. The passion I put into my paintings comes from my heart; whether its pain, joy, happiness or sadness. You can see the emotion in the colors I use and the designs I have completed. I love to see that I helped create someone’s smile or memorable moments through music, which is my heart’s passion, makes me smile the most and fills my heart almost full. My heart is completely full when I get to share time with my phamily. They are the ones I have elected as family.
Soul? My soul will carry on for eternity. It has dance in it with colorful wings that spread and soar high. It leads me on a path only I can follow and become. Music is in my soul and keeps it moving and dancing through this crazy time in my journey. I can only trust that it knows whats best.
All along, I have made art and am fortunate enough to still be able to express my soul through the work of my hands. “I’m an artist.”
My MIND is intrigued by puzzles. How to take a simple household object and render it into a beautiful, thought-provoking object for others to ponder. My HEART is full of love and concern for this world of ours. It seeks to promote healing, understanding and love among others. To affect the trajectory of humanity is a positive way, one person at a time. My SOUL is a seeker. It is connected to the thread of all who came before and all who will come after; we are all one.